WORK!
On March, 2018 I decided I would begin drawing my life. It was far too much holding all these pieces together in this mind; so much didn’t make sense. I started with a victim/god drawing. I didn’t know why any god would let a child they loved endure the shitty life I’d found myself mulling in.
I couldn’t understand why he’d offer me heaven, yet give me hell until…
I don’t really know if I’ll include this drawing, it’s not cleaned up yet, not painted, either… rough and raw and hideous. The guy in the clouds with his castle, jewelry and sneer is god, I’m losing my shit, obviously.
When I began to draw, tears would spill, non-stop from my face in recognizing the pain I held within. Why had I been so hard on myself? My children would have crumbled if they had to endure such pains, and I most certainly wasn’t an exception. I crumbled into so many pieces. But drawing these have helped me gather up so many parts that I’d lost, parts that suffered alone in the dark all of these years. I let them have their feelings, reincorporating them into my life.
I brought my book to my therapist who’s eyes lit up. She told me I was doing “Somatic Therapy” –which I’d just come to her for! I hope it’s an eye opener. Mental illnesses will do a number on ya! But, you can wake up!
But! I’m also creating a Kickstarter project https://www.kickstarter.com/profile/the-dalai-momma to begin production! If you’d like to support this project, I will blow your socks off, ok? Promise!
I’ll be filling my page titled “Book” on the tabs, at the top of this site. You’ll get peeks now & then, my sweet supporters. I’m so excited!!!