Merciless
She didn’t know what her mother was talking about. Why was she saying these things? She hurt even more.
Parenting 101
I’m Finished!
Whoooo!!! Feeling safe, not being beneath layers of trauma –not living underneath a controlling force, and doing work because I desire to learn has been the ultimate gift to myself!! I just ended my final week of college for Spring semester. If only I had a safe environment while growing up… I am finding that …
Unschoolers and Online-Schooled Interview
In the year 2020 a pandemic reached global proportions; a novel virus sped throughout the globe and governments in most countries shut down parks, schools, playgrounds, bars, libraries, and malls. In March of 2021 the earth’s heartbeat continues to say, “stay home; it’s a pandemic.” We must draw closer to our loved ones and work …
“Clearly, You’re trying too hard to be perfect…”
That’s what she told me; my therapist told me this today. She then asked me, “What are your expectations for yourself?” I felt dumb. I sat there not knowing the answer. I flashed back to childhood– I’m sitting on the carpet; my mother is sitting in a Lazy Boy, rocking a fat baby boy with …
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*Trigger Warning* Contains talk of death, Neonatal emergency care, NICU, and suffrage
In the middle of a documentary on normalizing, HUMANIZING death… I was seeing the footage of the NICU and watching moms cling to the lives of their little babies. It set me into a torrent of tears. The flooding of memories from the day I rushed to the hospital with my baby. We were swiftly …
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November Nuts
“The mother wound can be defined as your mother not being emotionally attuned and available to you as a child. She may have been present physically but emotionally absent. There could be a multitude of reasons for it.”
Considering
I’ve been considering an awful lot — with so much time on my hands and all. I am finding it difficult to fit everything I need done in the day due to a lag in my motivation. I believe I’m still grieving the family sever from last month. Then Covid19 popped up, I lost my …
The Endurance of Solitude
It seems most of us in the entire world are experiencing quarantine (albeit government, news media, and “essential workers”) in solitude. We are shacked up in homes, alone; holed up in apartments with mates; re-homed with parents; at home with children. Yet there are some that are homeless, enduring this all alone. What we’re all …
Christmas and all that Jesus stuff
This time of year my body is sending pulses of memory throughout my senses. The memory it holds inside gives way to emotional bursts of rushing, hurrying, making sure, be ready, don’t let down, be prepared.Today is the day, every year, that we joined with family and good times and more bad times were had. …
Our days of slogging are through
I’d like to state for the record that I removed my children from schools outside of the home. I have one child still flip-flopping on the decision, as she goes to a college prep school and loves it there… No more anxiety attacks when the automated mass phone alert from the school calls about a …