About our family
When I was a child, they didn’t tell me that my body is part of the earth; that it is a machine, literally. It creates a lubrication to keep its parts from burning up, uses data for processing and stores it like a computer, and runs on broken and functioning loops. Cartoons surely never …
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Seems redundant, might I say even merciless to see someone experiencing pain… I mean, imagine, a war so terrible someone has been harmed and you cannot see the bruising yet –do you say to them, “Get up! You’re not hurt. This isn’t even that bad! You’re really bringing me down, I’m ashamed of you. How …
The past four weeks have been dunking me. I’m stepping into college again, working away at that degree. It’s nearly mine. I’m taking one course that’s kicking my ass in a good way. It’s Non-Fiction Creative Writing. I took it on a whim right at the last moment because my counselor suggested I wrap up …
I rested as an ova within an outer egg-cell package, unformed and whole at the same time, resting deep within; my grandmother was a teenager. She was shy. Her father was rough, stern; he made her read and memorize bible verses with her siblings, if they didn’t do it good enough they were whipped on …
December 14, 2020 I’ve reached the downs. I’m rather low these days. It’s a New Moon, like my long ago, dog’s name. I’m feeling really awful this morning. Tightness in my chest. Tightness all over.. like I’m waiting for bad news. Like I know bad news is on the way, or I’m bringing bad news …
In the middle of a documentary on normalizing, HUMANIZING death… I was seeing the footage of the NICU and watching moms cling to the lives of their little babies. It set me into a torrent of tears. The flooding of memories from the day I rushed to the hospital with my baby. We were swiftly …
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“The mother wound can be defined as your mother not being emotionally attuned and available to you as a child. She may have been present physically but emotionally absent. There could be a multitude of reasons for it.”
Last night my ex-husband and father of our 8 children called on a video chat. He and our daughters were laughing and sharing silly drawings, only to have him ask everyone to gather –including me and the older ones if they were around. I felt a cold drop in my belly. Was this where he …
Being a young mom was fun. Watching my little girl grow, seeing how she needed my every moment’s attention; how one-on-one parenting was best. As Christianity took root in my soul, I pulled away from that knowing to add another soul to my responsibility, to fill a void, to have a playmate and friend for …
I’ve been considering an awful lot — with so much time on my hands and all. I am finding it difficult to fit everything I need done in the day due to a lag in my motivation. I believe I’m still grieving the family sever from last month. Then Covid19 popped up, I lost my …
